He woke me after midnight. He looked wan, haggard and in a frenzied state. He said he had nowhere else to go. Joe was once a brilliant intellectual, a magna cum laude from Harvard. A Sociology grad student at Berkeley. And now someone who stopped taking his meds and walked out of the Napa State Hospital. His father and brother had both committed suicide and he seemed resigned to his fate as well. He talked all through the night and in the morning he wanted his picture taken. He wanted to remember what he looked like. I think he carried this picture for the rest of his life.